ACE reflection is bugging me.

Not because it's all that difficult, but because it's 1111pm and I'm not even halfway through.
And because every word I type seems to seal my fate to not do well for this.

I'm annoyed with myself, really.
All the talk about how I'm gonna push myself to achieve, for God and for my future, yet I spent my day watching countless episodes of White Collar and hours on youtube.
Typical weekend, yknow.
But really, what drive? What motivation?

It's like I'm chasing down a dead end, trying to convince myself I'll be happy when I finally find that wall.
But deep down, I know that's all there's going to be  -- a wall.
How is that even worth all of this?