airplanes like shooting stars

It's a rainy morning and I believe that rainy mornings were made for overthinking and being emotional. I hate that I feel like I'm not doing anything outside of academics here. I hate that I can't even think of a way to get myself involved something. I hate that I find it so difficult to trust God. I hate that everyone seems to be doing so well and I'm just trying my damnedest not to let my cracks show. Here's rock bottom, when does the next climb start?