Having yet another omgwhatamidoingwithmylifeugh moment, they just keep coming these days. Must be all the mindless studying getting to my head. But really though, what the hell.

I'm getting so frustrated, feeling so claustrophobic with the whole education system, the rat race and whatnot. What's the point in learning 4 subjects in such useless detail, considering I'm only going to use a small percentage of it in whichever path I take in the future? Gosh, what would I give to get the hell out of here but nooooooo you have to go on this path, it's the only way you'll make it yada yada yada.

And it's like with every day I see my dream of studying overseas flying further and further away, which doesn't do much to keep me going.

It's a bleak, bleak future I see. 

God, help me have faith that You will put me on the path You know I should walk.